Addressing Doubt

 


Doubt calls me  -  Invites me to consider

My unanswered questions  -  And misunderstanding

Doubt holds up the prayers that remain unanswered

The disappointments and places of loss

Doubt is a fire

Hungry and devouring

There is plenty of fuel

I have been disappointed, lost and confused

Many of my prayers and questions remain unanswered

There is much I don’t understand

I have sorrow and anger and millions of questions

Doubt speaks its own questions

What if things don’t get better? What if it gets worse?

Doubt demands an answer

Why don’t you understand? What is wrong with you?

The questions and demands point at me

At my weakness and lack

I am torn down and trampled over by the questions of doubt

Doubt is the enemy of faith  -   But faith is a fire too

The fuel of faith is my testimonies   -    The evidence I have of my God

I pile up the truth I have experienced    -    All that I am convinced of

 

That God is good, faithful and true to His word

That He speaks – always in love, with power that is gentle and brings life

I am loved and secure within His embrace

His power makes up for all my shortcomings and He is pleased with me

These fuel the fire of my faith

It burns hot and wild

I add my hopes and dreams

I believe He sees them in their secret, unspoken form

He is the one who first whispered them to life

I trust His timing

My God is faithful

I will wait in trust

I will wait with hope

My faith burns bright

And on this fierce fire – I cast my doubts

My cares and all of my questions

Ignite them  -  Purify them  -   Use them to fuel my faith

For you O God are my only pursuit

I sacrifice my doubts on the altar of your love

I place my trust in You


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