Vignettes

 

Fear

Beneath the fear I listen and hear the questions of my heart
        My vulnerability lies exposed
Hiding within the questions, I discover what I value most
This is the true treasure
       To know the things that matter most to me
        A nugget of solid gold
I can choose to speak it out
       And work back up through the vulnerability and questions, 
       past the fears and find a solution to the stress
OR I can choose fear again
I can cover my discovery with insecurity and fear

       defend it with stress and anger

I choose to risk for freedom

I will speak

       Longing - 

 
            Longing is when you say goodbye 

        even as you want to hold tighter and never let go
            Longing is watching a part of your heart go beyond you
                    and feel the sorrow mix with anticipation and gratitude
            Freedom is when you celebrate
                Though your heart is longing
 

ALIVE

 
Alive is greater than breathing,
    More than a heart beating and pumping
Alive is more than feeling

Alive is dreaming and growing

Alive is being and moving
Discovery and Anticipation
           Alive is a wonder

That pulses with Hope
I feel my spirit alive
 

-  Dream  -

I dream a dream I can’t quite capture

Words are inadequate and as it is they are too fast to record

I feel a feeling of something greater, faster

Bigger even still

And so I lean in

I cease all striving

I will not try to capture, contain or describe it

Instead, I will live it

I enjoy the rush of what is swirling around me

I let it go unquantified, undescribed,

Vague and mystical

Free

I will let it be